You Want to Cross it?

Disliking DBSK?

2008-11-08T11:48:00.002+07:00

I was browsing around DBSK thread @ soompi when my eyes crossed one certain topic about why some people tend to dislike DBSK.

There are so many reasons and arguments. But there's one of them hit me with its obvious fact.

I'll directly point it out.

Lots of other artists' fans came to dislike or even hate DBSK, because DBSK is way too 'strong' to be beaten in popularity chart. Undebiably, DBSK stands out among others - that's the fact, which also left these people (fans of other artists) into frustration because they want their idols to deserve more popularity. It's a bit unfair to them, yes, and that's why - they end up hating DBSK because DBSK seems to win in every category like awards, album sales, etc.

It's so sad to see that these people then started to say things like, DBSK doesn't deserve the popularity they've been receiving ever since they first debuted up until now, or they just nothing but bunch of pretty guys who got no talents.

In this case, it became more obvious when MKMF voting began to start couple of weeks ago: DBSK has made their way to lead in every category they're in.

Seeing this, it's natural for other fans to feel disappointed.

As a TVXQ fan, I have highly expectation for them to win and of course will be happy if they receive awards for their great piece of music.

But as a Big Bang fan... I can't lie to myself that I actually feel very disappointed. BB has been working very hard throughout the year, and I truly think they also deserve to win...
really.

It would be a great achievement for BB boys, right?

I love TVXQ & BB.
Both of them have loads of talents.
They have their own styles,
And they have successfully made me fall head over heels into their music.

If you ask me whether I tend to like DBSK or BB more,

I can't answer it.

And that will explain why do I hate topics related to TVXQ & BB as competitors - which is in fact, most people nowadays simply put their perception in that way.

But then again, I don't want to be 'lost' in between.

All that I have to know, I love them. Dong Bang Shin Ki & Big Bang.
All that I have to do, is supporting them as always.

I don't want to think about other matters.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I ordered my copy of Big Bang 2nd Remember!

Actually, I've downloaded it at the very first time it leaked at the download sharing forums, nevertheless, I haven't opened the folder until now. Hahaha... simply because I want to wait for the original copy instead and hear it once it has arrived!

Goodbye for now~

With lots of Pocky,

whiteyin

Buy Original Stuffs lah!!

2008-11-03T06:58:00.005+07:00

Big Bang Japan concert tour ‘Stand Up 2008′

Idol group Big Bang had their Japanese concert tour ‘Stand Up 2008′ which saw the attendance of 20,000 fans to the concert performances.

They had their first concert performance on 28th October in Osaka HooSeng Hall, 29th in Nagoya JoongKyung University and 1st November in Tokyo JCB Hall. Their second concert tour saw 2 times the number of fans as compared to the 10,000 for their ‘Global Warning Tour’.

Before their 7pm concert performance on 1st November, a 100-over-meter long queue of fans waiting to go into the concert hall. Also a while ago, there has been a lot of talk about the haste sold-out situation for the tickets for Big Bang’s concert this time. Also much concern was for the high cost of 800,000 KRW for their concert tickets sold illegally.

Big Bang sang about 30 songs in the 2.5 hours, including new performances of 6 songs off their first Japanes official album ‘Number 1′ released on 22nd October, and also individual performances to the delight of their fans.

For example, TaeYang did his solo performance of ‘Prayer’ and ‘Look Only At Me’, while DaeSung performed ‘Look at me, GwiSoon’. And for SeungRi, he prepared especially for this concert tour his rendition of Nakashima Mika’s ‘Eye’s Flower’ in Japanese.

Apart from their solo performances, for this concert tour, 1TYM Danny also appeared as guest performer performing the song ‘Without U’ and ‘Hot’.

Big Bang’s concert tour this time has also gained a lot of attention from the Japanese artistes. For their Tokyo concert performance, vocal Tachibana Keita of group W-inds, who won the best Asian singers during Asia Song Festival this year, also attended the concert.

Keita said, “There is this group who has been attracting a lot of media concernt and attention lately, which is Big Bang. Even though they are younger than me, also much capable, their dance performances were also enjoyable. Their performance was something to be jealous of.”

Also one member of group PinkInk (not sure if this it the correct name of the group, I just did direct translation) also wrote on her blog “After attending Big Bang’s concert, I went to listen to their other CDs. Even though I am not into Hip Hop, I like Big Bang.”

Not only this, it was also broadcasted on TokyoTV ‘RyuHa R’ programme, “We were surprised that Big Bang members sing so well.” Also on the programme, an official said, “Hip Hop, R&B, Eurobeat - from their music to dance style to their performing outfits, there is such a variety. Their performances were delightful, so are their individual members’ solo performances - they were impressive. “

With the end to their concert tour in Japan, Big Bang has also successfully revealed their latest teaser video to their 2nd official Korean album ‘Remember’, which is set to release on 5th November. The boys will have their comeback performance on 8th November on MBC Music Core.

credit: Soo Kyeong @ Kbite + soompi

OH YEAH!! IT'S AWESOME TO SEE SOME J ARTISTS WATCHED THE CONCERT AND GAVE COMPLIMENTS TO OUR BB BOYS! I'M SURE BB WILL RISE MORE IN THE FUTURE...

Anyway, I'm drooling over Stand Up Tour goodies!

But money in purse left me with an option - either it's the goodies, or their second korean album -___- But then again, I've been wasting money too much! I admit it, I'm a type who cannot resist over original/official stuffs/albums/etc, specifically if it's about my fandom (TVXQ & BB).

Why? Well, it's simply because I support them.

They make great music, and they deserve to be loved.

That's why, I couldn't help myself to HATE to the core towards people who claims themselves as a fan, but in fact, they do nothing to support the artist.

I remember one friend from high school, commented that I was too crazy - too fanatic with TVXQ just because I bought the original FITB (japan version, which is cost a lot rather than the korean version one). But then, another male friend defended me, saying that "What's your point? If you like a singer, what's wrong with buying his/her/their albums?"

I have many friends who act like some kind of loyal fans but when I ask them, why don't you buy the CD? Show some support lah! They just go quiet and have nothing to say.

And also in one case, there's this one particular friend who asked me to make her an mp3 cd consists the newest songs about kpop & jpop. Okay, I did her first request.

And she was likely more into jpop and kpop after hearing the cd...

But she hadn't satisfied yet.

She wanted more.

I don't know where did she got the idea; but she embarassed to ask me again so she went to ask another friend and told her friend to ask me to make another mp3 cd - but this time with ALL TVXQ SONGS, STARTING FROM THEIR FIRST ALBUM , JAPANESE SINGLES, AND THE O JUNG.BAN.HAP ONE (Mirotic wasn't released yet at that time).

OMG!! Can't you believe it???

O course, I COMPLETELY REFUSED HER REQUEST!

Her friend in the end, was the one who told me everything - about who the real requester was. But she told me to keep this as a secret as she didn't want to prolong the problem.

Well, I didn't mind it anyway. But still kind of annoying to my friend's little trick. Ha!

Anyway,

My mom bought me a new pair of NIKE shoes!!

And I just started a fanfic!! The cast is SeungRi a.k.a Lee Seung Hyun from Big Bang, and Jung Yun Ho from TVXQ. And I just made this poster last night. I didn't have any concept for the poster, so I just edited with ways I felt like to do XDD.

But it turned out very lovely!

...At least, lovely for me. Hahaha...

Well, anyway, I think I should call it a day (for blogging). Will continue later!

With lots of pancake,

Whiteyin~

TVXQ... Big Bang??

2008-10-31T08:26:00.003+07:00

It's quite a dilemma for me.

I don't know where should I put myself into about MKMF 2008. I do want to vote, but I don't know who I want to vote!

It's either TVXQ or Big Bang.

I want them to win so badly, but I don't want them to compete against each other. Somehow, a gush of guilt would come and rushing down on me whenever I point my pointer mouse to one of their pictures on the voting page. I can't bring myself to do a simple click!

Gaaah...

It has been confusing me.

Now the voting time is over, let's just see the result later.

p.s: I ended up wasting my money again over tee shirts T.T

2008-10-26T09:22:00.002+07:00

Hey! I know it has been a very, very long time since my last update!

I was busied with midterm test and English Day, therefore - I got no time to blog about every single thing happened and plus, I have to admit it that I had gradually lost interest in blogging.

I don't know how, but I found out my fond of blogging is no longer there, as if it had faded away, disappeared. But anyhow, abandoning my blog - is a hard task for me to do. I've just started to move into this current blog couple of months ago, and my sense (haha, sense!) told me that it's not right, to just abandon it like that.

Hence! I'm still trying to bring my fondness back so...

here I am!

I'll try to write regularly from now on. And see if I can make things work again just like it did before...

See you at the next update!

With lots of Caramel Macchiato,

whiteyin

FINALLY, AN UPDATE!

2008-10-09T10:48:00.019+07:00

I'M YOUR NUMBER 1!!!!

Oh yeah, once I heard the electronic element played at the beginning, I should know: this is sooooooooooooo Big Bang!

It didn't take me long to soon become addicted, since hey, it's BIG BANG!! Although I haven't got myself to see the brand new video from these amazing guys because time didn't allow me to... but I got to be happy because it still allowed me to download the mp3!

I heard "Number 1" repeateadly yesterday before exam and seriously, I couldn't hold myself to move my head up and down following the beat... and believe it or not, it sent me a spark of energy that magically brightened up my mood!

Their music never failed to amaze me =)

...Makes me wonder,

Why does the power of music has such incredible effect to human (as in my case, TVXQ and Big Bang)?

Hmmm... Maybe that has something to do with mental and emotion, I think.

But anyway.

I do really, really want to start supporting Big Bang - as a V.I.P - to buy their next release album - 'Number One.'

But I'm not a rich man's daughter T.T
My mom says, "You can't waste your money (yeah, waste, that's what my parents said) for something that actually doesn't really necessary to buy while there's a thing come to be more important! You have to use money wisely!"

But well, as for TVXQ, I had already convinced my parents and they understand me perfectly well that I do appreciate my idol's hard work by purchasing the original copy of their albums... so, that's not a big problem anymore.

*Sigh...* Hopefully I'll recover soon in money problem, XDD

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

OMG I forgot to say hello!

Hello, People! I'm officially back!
So sorry because this thing came out to be the second thing coz I totally got so excited with Big Bang's "Number 1"!

Uh. Never mind.

Anyway, I know I haven't updated crossmyline for quite a while, but I wasn't trying to abandon my blog!

Well, soooooooooo manyyyy things happened between my absence in blogging XDD

...but in the end, I shall admit that I was sooo damn lazy to write an update. Because:
1. I went on holiday... last week.
2. And the next following week, which is the present time, I'm having a mid-term exam.

.
.
.
.
...See? I have my reason!

Hahaha XDD

Hmmm.
Today I'm in a good mood to blog (since there'll be no exam today!) about how was my life doing during my disappearance (in my blog).

Errr...
But I have to tell you, this post is going to be very... random... so, yeah~

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Okay,
Here comes the no.1 reason of why I had absent last week: I went to Bandung and Central Java on my one-week length holiday!

btw, I LOVE BANDUNG!

The weather was friendly, unlike Jakarta.

Ha, don't talk about this lovable city of ours... the tropical climate appears very obvious in this land, and I'm sweltering to death whenever I'm not in a room with fan or air conditioner. Bah!

It would be SUPER DUPER nice if Jakarta is on a highland... like Bandung =)

City of highlands... reminds me of Genting, haha.

Anyway, Bandung is nice, and the obvious one is absolutely - its air. I do really envy Bandung people because they live in a city which granted by fresh, breathtaking air, and not to forget - beautiful sight as their surrounding. Everything is there... food, clothing store, outlets, etc etc etc.

Enjoyable trip =)

But despite of all those nice words!

There's actually one unpleasant thing that I'll always remember, forever and ever and ever and ever~~~~ *ehm!!*

It was very annoying for me, as a domestic tourist who don't familiar with Bandung's area...

The thing is,
I was pissed off by these quite number of people, who claims their selves as Bandung's citizen.
(Please note! If you have never, ever done this kind of scene that I'll going to tell you, then don't feel offended. But if you have ever done it, well, you SHOULD feel offended, you scum!!Remember, I don't offend Bandung people, but to these specific people. But then again it's based on a fact and I have a right to feel annoy with it. Okay??)

It's not really a big thing, but it did make me angry when someone answering 'don't know' everytime we asks for direction.

It's not only someone, but everyone! Every people that we met, every people that we asked, on the same day!

Each person - I don't know if actually they made a deal first to say the EXACT SAME THING to every stranger who is apparently, asking for direction - but you know what? Their talking appears the same!! No different!!

"Excuse me, do you know where Cihampelas Street is?"
"I'm sorry, I don't know..."

"Excuse me, do you happen to know where Cihampelas Street is?"
"Oh, I don't know."

"Excuse me, where's Cihampelas Street?"
-no answer, but shaking head-

-__________-

Geeezzzzzzz...

We stopped again, asking another person... but all those persons that we happened to ask were answering, "don't know."

The question is, they're staying in Bandung, right??
Then HOW COME THEY DON'T KNOW THAT FAMOUS STREET THAT EVEN TV STATIONS BROADCASTS IT ZILLIONS OF TIME?????

Okay. Newcomer? It's possible.

But we had our questions answered with "don't know"s by more than 8 persons, and that means they're all NEWCOMERS? Everyone of them?

Oh, c'mon. Is that what they call, 'coincidence'? I don't believe it.

I don't know what was on those people's mind, but since they're citizens of Bandung, they should have known the area! How would they know their way then, if they don't know direction???

Grrr.

.......AAAAaaaaaaaaah............. never mind.

As I'm typing more, annoyance is also growing bigger in me.

Just... be nice, people. Help strangers in your country or city or town if you happen to find them asking direction to you.

-_-

Anyway.

Bandung - in fact - is truly a SHOPPING PARADISE! Visit Cihampelas Street, Riau Street, and Dago street, those are places where you can simply find many fashion stores and factory outlets. And not to forget, the price is affordable!!

And these unique stores located on Cihampelas Street.

pictures credit as tagged.

My best damn reason to go to Bandung is no other than DISTRO(Distribution Outlets), a shop which most of the products are designed by local designers. So, it's not something made by garment factory just like usual clothes out there.

Well, there's a reason what makes me *and other distro's lover* prefer this local product more.

It is the creative, original design.

Mostly DISTRO's main product is T-SHIRT. And by the hands of skillful designers, they turns an ordinary t-shirt to a wonderful one.

Oh, you don't know how much I love DISTRO's high quality printing T-SHIRT!

High quality printing means, high quality T-SHIRT.

There's this particular shop at Riau Street, an old house building to be specific - but it was renovated and the owner made it as a place filled with DISTROs.

Yes, an OLD HOUSE, consists of stores in its yard. And all of them are distros!! I had a great time exploring the shops one by one. Felt like exploring heaven, haha!!

24/7, my heaven~ humming Big Bang's 'Heaven'... that's a good song btw!

The shop's name is... I kind of forget... but I think it's 'Local Distro', and it's near to Santika Hotel - you can find it easily, really.

Here's one of t-shirts that I bought... (there's more but I'm not going to show every pieces that I bought!!)

I really love this t-shirt. You'll know if you see the real material =)

In fact, I've been a huge fan of T-shirts - those ones with unique design, colorfully printing... and you know what? This CRUSH over T-Shirt has actually grown bigger than before because this boy made me even so.

GD baby! Look at his t-shirt!

And his stylish cap...

Me, want it to death!!!!!!! Where did you buy it?? TELL MEEEEE!!

Oh, my bro also bought this:

How creative! I like the shopping bag design. And what's inside...?

Bracelets!! ^0^

Would like to hunting more goodies there~~~~

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I'm dying to have Falcon X-Box 360! Because I need to play:

The teaser trailer, screenshots, videos, galleries, and everything about the game, made me want to play it so badly! It'll be released for PS3 and X-Box as well (from what I heard, next year), and I hope by the time it is released, I can afford one X-Box 360.

There's no excuse to skip playing the XIII!!

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

This is the 3rd times I changed my blogskins!

It's not like I'm getting bored with the previous one, which is Se7en blogskin, but I just found this skin cute and to think that it's not that girlie, I began to do my work: editing!

Hahaha, I think I'll change my blogskin frequently.

Nice skins out there made me XDD

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Oh yeah, Linz said that she had already sent TVXQ's MIROTIC to me yesterday!

Will update soon once I received it! OMG OMG OMG...

See you!~

With lots of... 'love'?

No, that sounds cheesy to me.

With lots of chocolate pudding + vanilla sauce,
-whiteyin-

It's an obsession...

2008-09-30T17:22:00.006+07:00

I WANT X-BOX 360 BADLY!!!!!!!!

The next obsession to be fulfilled soon.

Yeah, soon!

I'll make it mine. I'll purchase it by my own money.

And by then, I'll have FULL authority to use it, without sharing with my bro!

The day, will come.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Memories will remain forever...

Thank you, for being my friend... for being in my life, for being years with me.

EXTRA: a picture that'll make you do some neck exercise...

XDDD

sore throat

2008-09-29T09:17:00.004+07:00

Hey people...

BE CAREFUL!
I may not tell you, but I've been suffering a dangerous disease and it is highly infectious for anyone who is currently reading this by now...

...NO, LAH!

I'm just kidding =)

Actually, I'm sick, yes, but it was just a cold and cough... for almost a week T.T

It was a lil bit annoying, of course... though I have to admit it that me, like it when I got my voice changed due to the cold I had =)

Well... to be honest, I'm not a person who minds about those kind of things... uh, I mean, sickness.

When I got sick, I always eat what I want to eat, whether it has a bad impact on me or not. And what else... I'm too lazy to take medicine before someone kindly enough tell me that I should.

Oh, and more example. I also can never get myself to drink lukewarm water when technically, I should.

^^;

Hahaha, I'm a bad kid!

But yesterday, I got this 'punishment' for being careless.

It's a sore-throat -__-.

I already had a cold and cough, so I didn't expect for a sore throat as an addition to complete my sickness.

But then again, it was my own fault...

I was too lazy to notice a warning that had warned me from the very beginning, to not to eat some kind of... 'nasty' snack...? Nuh, I can't say it's nasty XDD it was only a cereal (without milk) and... let me see... oh! A nut-crunch-filled labelled chocolate.

But hey, the urge was coming from my stomach after all! I craved for sweets, and those happened to be ones that I had. So, I just ate them right away~

...without any worry that it would make a sore-throat... despite that I knew, I wasn't in a very healthy state lately XDD

Sooooo... here I am!! With a painful sore throat, somewhere - around my tonsils.

Do you know how much trouble I've been getting so far by eating, chewing, or swallowing food? It's extremely painful, and it seems that this is the worst sore throat I've ever had in my life!

Seriously, the pain source (or whatever its name... sorry, vocabulary limited!) is located deeper than I usually countered. And even up until now, the pain hasn't gone yet!! I've been regularly eating my medicine now, but the result is 0.

...

OUCHH!!

Oh man, I just sneezed.

And it HURTS!!!!!! My throat, I mean.

Oh. My...

Do I have to continue my life like this...? Miserable enough... T.T

Anyway, just hanged out with long-time-no-see friends today! It was fun, though I had some kind of... a bit uneasy feeling?

Dunno why. Maybe because they're long-time-no-see friends?

Well, I'll blog about it tomorrow *if I have a mood to write a blog post, that's it* and post up pictures also. My blog is soooooo picture-less!!

what's on today

2008-09-27T21:56:00.006+07:00

I spent my time today with my friend and her sister =)

And we went to ITC Mangga Dua for nail painting!

Well, Mangga Dua is always crowded as ever, and we were like searching for hours only to find the shop mentioned by my friend's friend for nail art =(

Was scanning through the map on the board...

...but the map was OUT OF DATE! It gave us the wrong information for the exact location, and it totally, annoyed me -_-

Are they so damn lazy to change it with new one?

Ha, let's just cut it out... since we finally - in the end - were able to find the shop anyway.

Hmm, I didn't get my nails painted, though... because I bet that if I did, it wouldn't last long! I'm a careless person, anyway, a type who is actually never want to try to be more careful when my nails has just been painted XDD

Well, me myself, never once succeeded to paint my nails *laugh if you want* because it'll simply turn into a mess in the next second... uh, you know, carelessly (but unintentionally of course) act of scratching or touching something...

Yeah, yeah... I forget that my paint hasn't dried yet XD

So!
I was only watching to the whole progress =) and the outcome is gorgeous *sorry, no picture of it*!

...But still, I think, I can do better if it goes to painting, whatever media is used! *ha, narcissism!* and nail art is not excluded! It seems easy by the way I seeing it, and the only matter is, nail has only a small surface for you to draw.

Maybe one day, I'll consider opening a nail art shop or something, hahaha...

But my future plan still goes for Distro (Uh, Distro in Indonesian is, a self clothing brand which the design is provided by yourself). Who knows? =)

Anyway... I dropped by at my friend's house and we were watching MIROTIC MV @ my iPod Video! She hadn't watched it yet, so I brought my iPod and showed it to her, and you know what?? For me, watching it for nth times still doesn't make it enough! I'm still, and always, captivated by TVXQ charm...

Urrgh.. although I've downloaded the whole tracks of MIROTIC, I just can't wait for the album I ordered to arrive!!

Tthe album is waaaay toooooo GREAAAT!!!

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

You! TVXQ and NON TVXQ fans, go grab it! It's a MUST BUY!

And for such an excellent masterpiece like TVXQ's 4th album MIROTIC, the price is actually, inexpensive. I'm serious!

And...

If you're telling me that you're a loyal fan of TVXQ, go support them by buying the original!!

...By the way.

I just kind of remember...

I had my dinner at some chinese restaurant on Hayam Wuruk street. I went along with my friend's family, and the dinner, was their treat!

Oooh, how kind... =)

Me, happy!

But there's one thing that ruined my mood.

There was this certain person, sat with his whole family, near our table. And you know what ??

...All that he did, was staring at me, INTENTLY!

OMG, that is SOOOO rude.

What, do I look like some kind of alien to you? Or maybe, have you never, ever seen a human before?

I don't mind being stared. But if it's continuously,

--_________--

It can be very annoying to someone that you stare at.

Do have some manners...

p.s: But I won't deny that if (IF!!) I was stared by JUNG YUN HO, Uh oh, I'd be sooo damn happy! Hahaha!!

Unpleasant!

2008-09-23T06:32:00.007+07:00

I was looking back to my archives, when this thought suddenly crossed on my mind:

I barely mentioned about my worries in this blog.

Yeah, I know, I seldom to write anything personally about problems, and probably, it makes me seen as a happy girl who got no worries in her life.

But you don't know how someone's life is... right?

She may be the face who practically seems to lead a happy life. But as for the truth, people out there don't have any idea about how much efforts does she come with in order to live her life in a happy way.

Well...

Maybe I'm not exactly that kind of person. But I would say yes, to the part which tell people out there don't have any idea about me.

Yeah, about who I am, basically almost everything.

They don't know me.

It's not like I'm a secretive person or what. But I'm not used telling people, "hey, I'm in my bad mood, I'm bloody upset because he or she bla bla bla bla..."

I'm not that type of person, who likes bragging about her problems and tell the world how emo I've become due to complicated things I face.

Well, maybe I do, sometimes.

If I'm too pissed off by something around me.

But usually, I can manage to forget it somehow because I know, I'm not always be at the down side every time.

Oh, snd now before I forget, I'll tell you about something - how fandom (uh, do you know word 'fandom'? Search it on wikipedia... if you don't know, of course) has become a very, very important role in my life ever since I discovered TVXQ for the first time.

You know, if there were no TVXQ and Big Bang...

And if there were no SM Entertainment and YG Family...

OR even if there were no INTERNET at the first place!

Yeah, I can't say more.
I think... my life would've become the worst one.

More miserable than I've ever been, I think.

I'm not exaggerating. I'm being serious here!!

Sometimes, people will tell me that I sounds like a fangirl.

...fangirl?

FANGIRL??

FANGIRL????

Oh, please. Don't. call. me, a FAN GIRL - or like another people's assumption, bunch of idiots who likes going over handsome faces or anything - you name it - that related to someone physically.

.

.

.

.

.

...What the hell, I'm not a FAN GIRL!!

I HATE it to the core when people address me like one!

Well, just like the first statement I wrote on the upper post, they just don't have any idea about how much I DO love TVXQ. They don't know how much I support them, and why does it stand still even after years has passed by. They don't know what the real meaning of 'fan' itself is, and practically, THEY DON NOT KNOW NOTHING!

Ha!

What's so bad about fandom? Fandom is not like what you think, and for your information, you're just wasting your time if you want to tell me that, being in fandom is, wasting my time.

Mind your business please, and don't brag again.

Okay. Back to the main topic.

Not enough to be pissed off by one thing only, but I'm also very, very pissed off by several things recently, all happened in a row!

Well, I don't see if there's any use to talk (write) about this because it happens in every one's life - I know, I know. Life is about ups and downs, that also I know well.

But you know what...? I BARELY have no interest in life, because it has been so miserable to me.

Let's say... school's atmosphere, assignments, tight schedule, midterm test, meeting for English Day, tomorrow's presentation, low internet connection, friends, money, love, family (my brother. That jerk!), and everything that is usually there at horoscope telling.

Jeez.

I hate it.

EVERYTHING IS UNPLEASANT FOR ME!!

T.T I feel like I'm going to cry...

There are frustration, sadness, hatred, anger, dissatisfaction,

All were mixed into one. And please, don't ask me what's the name of the mixing.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

I WANT MY HAPPINESS (BACK)!!

Quick Update

2008-09-20T14:49:00.002+07:00

NEW BLOGSKIN!!

You know I do LOVE this current skin so much.

Because WHAT ELSE, IT'S SE7EN YO!!

Hahaha, look at the gorgeous picture of Se7en on the left side. It was edited by Carol at xfantasywingsx.net - and she's also the one who made the TVXQ skin that I had ever used on colorful-rainbow.blogspot.com! *my previous blog*

Well, if you ever visited my blog, that's it.

She's awesome, rite? I envy her skill on codes and html pages =)

Well, actually, I don't know why I ended up choosing Se7en as the theme of my blogskin...

But I think it's mainly because of the fanfic that I've been reading on (and it's already half-way finish) and the main character is Se7en, Han Ga In, Brian Joo, and not to forget Se7en's dongsaeng, Big Bang!

Well, Big Bang only plays minors though T.T,

But never mind. I do really enjoy that fiction story.

The title is 'Uljang Equation', and if you're interested, you can simply find it on bww2 forum, at fan fiction's section of course!

Well... I'm not a fan of Se7en (not yet, maybe) but I found him very charming, after reading some chapters. Ha, can you believe it?

Yeah, yeah.

I'm strange... liking Se7en just because I read the fanfic with him as the main character.

But anyway, the story is about the school uljang (school's pretty & popular boy) Se7en and his past that actually, has connections between other lead characters. This story is written in different point of views, but mainly, the author used Han Ga In pov's (the female lead) to describe events, happenings, etc.

Well, you read it yourself. It's highly recommended. Even the admin on bww2 gave the love sign on its topic label.

Anyway!

The purpose of this entry beside announcing the blogskin change, is also to clear something!

The person who gave me Hebe's doll figure was not Yuli only. But Julisca also!!

How. unforgiveable.

I thought it was Yuli, since she was like, the one who gave me the present.

But it has been clarified anyway... and I did say thanks to Julisca also.

Thanks guys!
You're the best!!

Hebe's toy figure! + random things + An award from RiP

2008-09-19T21:51:00.012+07:00

Hello, this is my favorite spot!

A place where I usually spend hours *not every day, though* only to sit down in front of it.

…Well, actually, there’s something on the desk.

Let’s zoom it together~

Okay. Zoom more.

Hmm… what is that… rounded, greeny head thingy?

Haha, I shall tell you…

…

TADAA~~

Say hello to Miss Hebe Tian!

Yup, you got it right. It’s Hebe Tian from S.H.E. Do you know her?

What? It’s not Hebe you say?? YOU DOUBT ME??

NO! Take a look closer! It’s Hebe! Hebe’s toy figure, to be exact.

See the ‘H’ on her black dress?
‘H’, stands for Hebe of course! And the box itself has a label ‘S.H.E’ on it, so – don’t you dare to have a doubt on me again XDD

Hehehe… Look at MY cute Hebe ^0^

I can tell that she’s in a very happy mood today.

Because this is her first time to be displayed!

And more importantly… starting from now on, she’s going to have her own private place!
Congratz to Hebe!

Hahaha…

Actually, this Hebe figure is a birthday present from one of my best friends, Yuli – and I just received it today. Well honestly, I really, really didn’t expect her to give me such present! I mean, she had to order the figure first, transferred the money + not to forget - the shipment, and wrapped it.

AND AND AND, she even came to my house personally, ONLY to give me this present!

Awww…

Yuli, you’re the best. Hontou ni arigatou nee!!

I DO really appreciate it =)

Anyway,

TVXQ 4th Korean album, MIROTIC…

…is available for pre order now!

Whoo hoo!!

I've been waiting for it to be in the Preorder list since ages ago, when SM first announced that Mirotic will be released around September (end). Mostly, pre order session will be started one or two weeks before the release... and finally... the day I've been waiting to come, is already come!!

Whoooo... pre order session is in the air *lalala...* XDD

Of course, being a loyal cassiopeia I am, I already ordered it.

But well...

Actually, I never expected to reach the mid of Sepetember this fast!

...and seriously, I think I need to save up more.

Money in my purse still not yet enough to buy TVXQ 4th album, because of previous online shopping T.T

Stupid me, couldn't stand the rarity and the cuteness of online stuffs.

Well, at least, I felt a great relieve to see the price. Mirotic, both A and B version, are not really as expensive as what I'd thought it would before! It's korean's releases btw. If it's Japan's - whoa, I think I'll just broke right away. Japan releases always no fail to make me want to go on suicide XDD

If me myself have a courage to do suicide, that's it XDD

---------------------------------------------------------------------

I got this award from RiP...

We need friends to comfort us when we are sad, and to have fun with us when we are glad.

We need friends to give us good advice,We need someone we can count on,and treat us nice.

We need friends to remember usone we have passedsharing memories that will always last.

We need friends for many reasons,all throughout the season.

The Rules:

1. Put the logo on your blog.

2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.

3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs.

4. Add links to those blogs on yours.

5. Leave a message for your nominees on their blog.

Well, actually, I don't have any nominees to be nominated, because I don't do exchange links just like before... because I would only put friends' links rather to put someone's link that I don't know who is he or she exactly, so... uh...

Am I disqualified for not following the rules?

But however, it is a great honor for me to receive this award from you, RiP! Thank you =)

And I'm so sorry for not able to visit your blog often just like the way you do ^^;

Keep posting, friend! ^^

Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?

2008-09-14T07:44:00.007+07:00

Oh, I have sooo much fun with this.
Try it! Especially if you're a VIP... Hahaha XDD

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations? Part 1!!!

1. When I fall and hurt myself

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who gives me a piggy back ride to the hospital
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who makes fun of me because I fell
c. Dong Young- Bae, who runs to go buys medication
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who helps me get home
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if it hurts a lot and blows on the place where it hurts

2. When I say I want a name brand item

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he'll make it a real one b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who pretends not to listen but buys it for me later
c. Dong Young-Bae, who promises to buy me one once he makes more money
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who keeps saying not to buy expencive things
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who keeps asking if he can buy me something else

3. While watching a horror movie

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who protects me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who quietly covers my eyes
c. Dong Young-Bae, who comforts me by saying there's nothing to be scared of
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who holds my hand tightly
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who screams even before i scream *XDD Cute SeungRi!*

4. When my voice crack while singing

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i'm cute
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who laughs at me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who gets even more embarrassed than me
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who pretends he didn't hear it
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who makes fun of me by imitating me

5. When his friend says he likes me

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says what are you trying to do and breaks ties with his friend
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who goes up and punches his friend
c. Dong Young-Bae, who talks it out with his friend
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says he will introduce another girl to his friend
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who stops talking to his friend

6. When I'm mad at my boyfriend

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who starts a serious talk by asking me if I'm mad
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm sorry and says don't be mad
c. Dong Young-Bae, who sings to me
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes me laugh
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who does cute stuff around me

7. When my boyfriend meets my friends

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who compliments me in front of my friends
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who asks my friends to watch over our relationship
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me feel good by complimenting my friends
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks my friends to consider him

8. On my birthday

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who takes me some place expencive
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who treats me better than other days
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me a special present
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who says happy birthday all day long cheerfully

9. When we kiss

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tight first
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who just does it
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks first
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who becomes awkward first
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the cheek and turns his head when I'm about to kiss his cheeks

10. When it's raining and we only have one umbrella

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who shares the umbrella but he ends up getting wet
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who holds me really tight so both of us don't get wet
c. Dong Young-Bae, who give me the umbrella and he walks under the rain
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who tells me to wait and go gets another umbrella
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain *this would be fun =)*

11. When I say I want to break up

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who lets me go, saying he's sorry he didn't do much for me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who is dumbfounded and says he never thought I'd break it off
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks if he can hug me one last time
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says farewell and lets me go, crying
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who clings and anxiously asks why I'm acting like this suddenly

12. When we go to the amusement park

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who suggests to ride what I want to ride
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who suggests to go to the haunted house first
c. Dong Young-Bae, who takes lots of pictures
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who eats this and that
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who forcefully takes me to scary rides

13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who is sorry but asks if I could pay for now
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young-Bae, who has them keep his belonging until he can pay
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls his friend to bring some money
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who is anxious and doesn't know what to do

14. When I talk to another guy

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks it's no big deal
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who tells me not to talk to other guys
c. Dong Young-Bae, who can't say anything but actually bothers him
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who is curious and sneakingly wedges in the conversation
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who later asks what we talked about

15. When he can't reach me through the phone

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says he's worried
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who comes to my house right away
c. Dong Young-Bae, who lets it by, thinking something must have happened
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls until I pick up
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who gets mad because I didn't pick up

16. When I tell him I love him

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who whispers in my ear that he loves me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who kisses me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who hugs me without saying a word
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who smiles, embarrassed
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too

17. When we're shopping

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says it's boring and wants to go home already
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who picks out clothes for me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who does everything I want to do
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who impatiently follows me around
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who enjoys shopping more than I do

18. When I act cutely (like a kid)

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks I'm cute and hugs me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm not doing it right and shows an example
c. Dong Young-Bae, who tells me to do that everyday
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who just laughs
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who copies me

19. When we get held up by a gang

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who fights them
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs *No, I don't want him to get hurt and fighting, is not cool*
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes an effort to clear things out
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls the cops
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who leaves me and runs away

Choi Seung Hyun (T.O.P) = 3
Kwon Ji Young (G-Dragon) = 6
Dong Young Bae (Tae Yang) = 1
Kang Dae Sung = 2
Lee Seung Hyun (Seung Ri) = 7

Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations? Part 2!!!

1. When I buy him clothes as a present and he doesnt like it…

a. TOP: smiles and lies trying to compliment it saying it’s pretty
b. GD: takes my hand and goes to the shopping mall explaining why he must exchange it for his fashion purposes
c. YB: smiles and tries to start a different conversation
d. DS: gets overly excited and exaggerates his thanks
e. SR: wears it on the spot and jumps up and down the sidewalk

2. When I am jealous due to his relationship with one of the female celebrities on TV

a. TOP: holds my hand.
b. GD: explains logically says its not true… then goes on TV and explains to the world its not true as well.
c. YB: stutters trying to explain continously, then sighs saying he’s sorry
d. DS: laughs and seeings ‘Look at Me GiSoon’ with my name in it instead
e. SR: Acts cute and says “Are you being jealous right now~!?’ in a cute voice

3. When I’m away from my phone and another guy sends me a text hitting on me

a. TOP: deletes the guys number
b. GD: presses ‘Call’ on the number right away.
c. YB: pretends he didnt see it but gets quiet
d. DS: tells me i got a text and gives me suspicious looks
e. SR: smiles and lets it go infront of me, then goes home and tracks the guy down texting him evil messages

4. When he comes to my house without a word but I look like a ‘pain’ (no shower, havent washed hair, sweats, etc etc)

a. TOP: Washes my hair for me
b. GD: Makes me a schedule on ‘how to not be a pain’ and makes me write a written oath that i will never be a ‘pain’ again
c. YB: lies to me and tells me he hasnt washed his hair for 4 days either
d. DS: sits down on my couch like nothings wrong and watches Dorraemon
e. SR: Gets too shocked and scared that he cant even come in the house

5. When I get a sickness and must die the next day

a. TOP: treats me like the normal days but never lets go of my hand
b. GD: swallows/hides his tears and says “Lets live today to the fullest/Until the day ends lets live like no tomorrow”
c. YB: ends up crying and doesnt know what to do
d. DS: pretends he didnt hear and keeps making me laugh
e. SR: cant stop crying and just keeps taking pictures with me

6. When he walks in on me cheating on him with someone else

a. TOP: without a word, punches the guy and takes me with him
b. GD: gives me his ring (couple ring), cellphone and walks out without a word
c. YB: makes a conversation with all of us
d. DS: says “Oops, got in the wrong place” and walks out *kekekekeke man oh man
e. SR: gets very mad and cant control his anger so he throws and breaks furniture

7. When meeting my parents and they dont like him

a. TOP: goes on his knees
b. GD: says “(name) is pregnant”
c. YB: smiles and says he wants to marry his first love
d. DS: tries to earn points by singing ‘Look at me Gwisoon’
e. SR: kisses me infront of my parents and shouts “(name) IS MY LADY!”

I think this is sweet!

8. When he sees that I’m in the audience while hes performing

a. TOP: never takes his eyes off me until his performance ends
b. GD: ignores me because i make him nervous and focuses on making the performance perfect for me
c. YB: is so happy that he keeps smiling and messes up his dance
d. DS: puts in customized moves by him for me
e. SR: acts cute infront of the camera

9. When I tell him I’m going to get plastic surgery

a. TOP: pretends he didnt hear and secretly slides a picture of ’surgery-gone-wrong’ pictures for me to see
b. GD: gives me his credit card
c. YB: tells me im more beautiful now and says no.
d. DS: insists if i do it, hes definitely doing it too *omg!*
e. SR: listens to me and then makes fun of me

10. When I say Im going to a resort for university

a. TOP: tells me to have fun and come back
b. GD: keeps asking me if guys are gonna be there too
c. YB: says its okay but you see him starting to pout without realization
d. DS: suddenly gives me DorraMon and tells me to think of him when i look at this
e. SR: says “Take me too” =)

11. When watching a movie together and its some serious 19+ sexual content…

a. TOP: tries to switch the mood by being funny
b. GD: ……asks jokingly “…can you do that?” >.<
c. YB: cheeks turn red, starts pourring nose bleed and faints
d. DS: “oh fun stuff~” and enjoys it
e. SR: suddenly whips his head around and looks at me

Choi Seung Hyun (T.O.P) = 2
Kwon Ji Young (G-Dragon) = 1
Dong Young Bae (Tae Yang) = 1
Kang Dae Sung = 4
Lee Seung Hyun (Seung Ri) = 3

So, the total is...

Choi Seung Hyun (T.O.P) = 5
Kwon Ji Young (G-Dragon) = 7
Dong Young Bae (Tae Yang) = 2
Kang Dae Sung = 6
Lee Seung Hyun (Seung Ri) = 10

It's Seung Ri!

Seung Ri's ones are ALL SO cute, and I can't help but to pick his XD
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- TRANSLATION CREDIT FOR PART 1: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI [credit if taken out]

TRANSLATION CREDIT FOR PART 2: Cynthia Wong for translating @ BIG BANG Facebook group [credit if taken out]

CREDIT: ORIGINAL// IN KOREAN
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

OMG, I have so many homework to do yet now, I'm still here and doing this thing XDD

I began to dislike my work and schedule.
Jeez...

BIG BANG = OXYGEN

2008-09-13T12:16:00.026+07:00

You know what?

I think, I'm going to fall deeper than I was already...

...into Big Bang's world.

To those VIPs out there, I'm pretty sure that you, as a loyal VIP, ever feel this kind of sensation... uh, what is it... a strange sensation - that approaching your ears once Big Bang music is in the air. Rite? Rite?

OK, I'll describe it in a simple, but hyperbolic way.

It's like, what we call... breathe.

Yeah, the same progress and mechanism. We inhaled, we are inhaling, and we will be inhaling for oxygen, all the time. We breathe. We all know what'll happen to us, if we don't have oxygen to breathe: basically we'll suffer, and then... die. Just die.

It has no difference with how Big Bang music works onto me, and of course, all VIPs!

We may be suffer if we don't set Big Bang music on repeat mode if we open our winamp, or any other media player... and we EVEN CAN'T LIVE without our earpiece hanging on our ears, only to hear the addicting music from Big Bang ...

For just a one reason.

It's . Because. WE. LOVE. URI. BIG. BANG !!

And HERE is the equation made by me:

"BIG BANG=OXYGEN"

Awesome!

A perfect, right, simple equation; to express and describe my growing love here. In my heart.

It's very obvious, right?

I LOVE KWON JI YOUNG!

I LOVE DONG YOUNG BAE!

I LOVE CHOI SEUNG HYUN!

I LOVE KANG DAE SUNG!

I LOVE LEE SEUNG HYUN!

I LOVE URI BIG BANG!!!

Aawwww...

sweet!

Pictures credit to: br31-cafe daumn cafe , S.BigRoom@VIPZ , soompi forum, bigbangkorean.wordpress.com, + as tagged.

Wedding? Marriage??

2008-09-09T14:33:00.007+07:00

Hey there! Have you read my previous post yet?

I mentioned that I would go to my mom's friend's daughter's wedding party on Sunday, right?

...And you know what.

The day before yesterday party was very, very fascinating!

Everything - starting from food, atmosphere, even the place! It's totally different from the wedding party I attended the day before the day before yesterday! (ok, for short, "Saturday")

The groom is a rich, rich man, because the party took place at Four Seasons Hotel, one of the 5 stars luxury hotels in the world... (right?) and every time I think about it, I can't help but toooooooo envy the bride...

So lucky leh!

The groom is a very rare 'creature', I tell you. He's handsome, has a strong jawlines (I like men with strong jawlines!), brainy, and indeed... rich.

My mom said that the groom's father's business is selling diamonds, jewelry... those kind of bling bling stuffs.

...Wah sei...

I'M JEALOUUUUSSSS!!

If the groom doesn't have a handsome face or killer smile or strong jawlines, I'd probably don't mind about it at all. But it's three in one package! Where will you find the good looking + brainy + rich man like him? Rarely to find, I think.

He's a decent man that every girl is searching for...

...or even... dreaming of. Just like me.

Hmm... I wonder,

What will my future husband like?

Sometimes this subject will just pop up from nowhere, and I'll always end up wasting my time to think about this blur thing. Oh, I just remember... someone (I met him at Thailand) said that, a couple - if one is a handsome looking man and his partner is a beautiful looking woman - actually, they aren't destined to be together. I know this is kind of senseless, but this man told me that in a couple, one of them must be the average look or even ugly...

He reasoned that a relationship between two good looking persons isn't going to work well, and may lead to unhappy life in the end.

Well, do you want to believe it or not, it's up to you~

Hmm, I don't know whether I'm categorized as an ugly, average, or maybe a cute person (haha!) but whatever categories I am, even if I'm ugly, I still long for a wonderful marriage with a decent, handsome looking man.

Uh, to be more specific, manly, gentle, caring, the one who is able to express his love to me.

=)

But...

What's marriage like?

Wha, I'm curious about this one.

In a relationship, it's very normal to get bored. You're bored with your relationship and want to try another new one. (haha, that's not my character though. I'm those who likes a long term relationship)

So...

What about marriage?

I might be a person who doesn't fall in love easily with another guy once I love this certain person. But I also doubt that I can love him to the rest of my life. I mean, marriage is, a forever relationship, right?

Wouldn't it a little bit boring to live, to wake up, to eat, and to spend your whole life with the same person?

Well, I don't really know about this.

And I don't really know if I able to find a person who I'll love with all my heart to the fullest... but I'd really like to meet him soon XDD

And again, I hope that he is a manly, gentle, caring, and a person who is able to express his love to me =)

AND RICH!

So that I'll have my wedding take place on a luxury place, just like Four Seasons Hotel XDD

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

...Wait.

I just thought about something.

Uh, it crossed on my mind suddenly:

...Is there any point in celebrating your wedding day at such a luxury, expensive hotel?

...

Hey, that's right!

You waste your money for just a one night party!
The one who is married is you and your partner, so why should you prepare everything far away before the wedding's date, only just to impress the guests? Choose the place, order the invitation card, try on the wedding gown or tuxedo, find the right gift/souvenir to give the attender who have attended your party, until your wedding hall decoration.

...

uh...

...Now that I think about it again....

...People just want the best for their wedding day, right?
Wedding day is an important date in a calender after all, so they attempt to make it as a special, memorable day.

^^;

Oh, okay. I think this has become more confusing...

I didn't mean to post about this at first, but well...

Let's forget it.

=)

Anyway, I think I'll add much more pictures in my next entries. Because my friend said that my blog is filled with just a wordy post, without picture...

Yeah, she's right =)

whiny

2008-09-06T22:26:00.007+07:00

Morning everyone!

Uugh... still very sleepy though. But I had no choice to wake up because I didn't have a mood to sleep again.

Well, it'll do the same with you, when the irresistible ring ring sound from your home telephone continued to ring out loud, and disturbing your beauty sleep --__--

I didn't blame on it though, because it was an important call...

I just lost the mood to sleep again, not angry nor even pissed off.

But anyhow, I'm still tired. And it's not because of my advancing age!! (yeah, 18... I'm that old T.T)

Yesterday I attended my relative's wedding party, that's why.

Yeah, yeah, just when I thought of a plan to stay at home all day - I totally forgot that actually there was a wedding party that I had to attend.

Okay, I'm going to whine now.

The food last night was NOT tasty!
It was... so-so lah. But so-so minus. Even my fave menu, black pepper beef - was somehow... didn't want to make its way to go through my throat.

I'm not lying!

And the cake... it has a plain taste.

Just a tinge of sweet, I think - and it doesn't have a soft texture just like any other cakes should have! (am I type the correct words?) And the topping? Small cubes of cherries, a cheese (should I mention, hard one? It was probably left in the open air too long), ceres chocolate with a little cream...

I would prefer my dad's own made toast for sweets.

It's super, duper delicious! (although the look is not really prominent, but the taste is!) I'm eating it right now ^.~

And what else...

The atmosphere.

Know what? I couldn't enjoy the atmosphere much, and was rather quiet throughout the party.

And! I was veryyyy sleepy that I thought I could just sleep in the chair!

Oh, just like what I had told before, when I'm sleepy, a dark circle will form around my eyes and then, voila! I'm a panda!

Uh, well, for addition, my friends said that I'm not even a panda because sometimes ,the circle is not only available (ha! Available!) in black color, but purple, and some unknown color near to green - are also colors that'll appear when I'm in a very, very sleepy state. Magical colors, huh -_-;

Yes. I was a panda last night.

Oww, it was so hard to keep my eyes open because: 1.I'm sleepy. 2. It was boring. 3. the air conditioner made my eyes dry and I ended up to frequently close my eyes because it was really hurt. 4. There weren't eye candies around XDD

...Yeah. Seriously (and honestly), if there were any eye candies, that would be nicer! (Girls, haha...)

Because mostly gentlements there... are... kind of weird. OK, I'm a judgemental person right now.

There was this man... with a weird fashion style, wondering around throughout the hall with smile never once left on his face (even when he was alone!) His walking style was like... overacting... yeah, a model wannabe. He dessed in white all from his shirt to trousers, except his belt, the black item which seperated the field of his white dressing color into 2 parts.

Did I mention that his shirt is very tight? And so does with his trousers... jeez...

His hairstyle is weird also lah.

He combed his hair all to the back -_- revealing his wide forehead...

Oh, and his wallet!

The long wallet one. He stuffed it in his back pocket of his tight trousers and that way, I think I could just easily grab it and run XDD (silly thought...)

Well, I was frowned.

I think he's still in his mid twenties and single (I can notice it by his face... & his style) but how come he has a weird taste of fashion? My mom totally agreed with me when I discussed this. She noticed that weird man too!

Well, if he keeps on his own weird style, I bet women wouldn't even lay a single glance to him.

Except, he's a richman.

Richman, however, will never be left alone by women, even how weird or ugly they are.

Anyway, I have to attend another wedding party tonight.

I wish I don't have to encounter the same boredom again =)

Randomness~

2008-09-06T05:27:00.005+07:00

A week has passed.

And without you notice it, it's weekend already!

Oooh, I love weekend!

But this week's weekend, I plan to just stay at home all day... because my previous one, and the previous before the previous one, and the previous one again (uh, don't get confuse), I spent all those days to go and have fun with friends.

So, I miss the moment when I'm just with no one, and then enjoying my private time T.T

And I'll be doing so today =)

...Anyway, this Minho from SHINee,

I think I started to like him XDDD

Well, eversince I watched Nuna Neomu Yeoppo music video, I already had my eyes laid on him.

...But then, everytime I hear 'The SHINee World (doo-bop)", especially when it's about to reach the end (the rap part), I dunno whether it has a magic casted on me or not but...

I got hook up by the voice!

Yeah, the one who did the rap.

It's no other than... Minho!!!!!

And I think he got a totally awesome skill of dancing! So it's not always TaeMin who got praised by his dancing skill...

Well, I don't have much to post today, so I'll just post these pictures.

And not to mention, both are so CUTEEE!!!

Baby SeungRi and cute Daesungie. My two fave BB members! I even used this for my phone's wallpaper. It's just... too adorable. Daesung's expression, I mean...

Oooh, this is also CUTE! I heart this picture! Sleeping Yunho... IS priceless. XDD

But Chunnie! How come you shot this?? He was sleeping and need some rest, you know!

Nah, just kidding.

Anyway, I think I want to change my blogskin again!

My birthday

2008-08-30T21:51:00.005+07:00

I barely like it when my birth day is coming.

I know that's such a weird thing to have as a part from my personality.

But I just can't seem to feel the true happiness from birthday. It's like, why should I throw a big fuss about my birthday? It's just a birth date anyway, and for me, it isn't that important nor special thing.

I wonder why, myself.

But well, this question doesn't mean to be answered, as I actually couldn't find any good reason to give the appropiate explaination.

How come I started to lose the interest on my birthday, or how come I cannot feel the excited feeling just like everyone does when they receive a congratulation bday message.

I don't have a good point to explain, because... it just grew on me naturally.

And gradually, eversince in my first junior high school year.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

No, no.

If you're trying to say that I'm just afraid for being old,

...Then you're definitely wrong.

Age is something that we couldn't simply run away from. I would choose to step further on the next stage of life, rather than just staying in the same life position, remaining still in my younger state.

Because you'll just make no progress!

People are moving forward, but you're still behind.

...No, no, I don't want that to happen on me.

Well, I dunno if I will have my mind changed in the future but, at least, that'll do for my current self now.

...Anyhow, I don't overly excited about my bday tomorrow.

It's really annoying when Mom would talking non stop, offering and asking me about what cake should she buy...

It's not like I'm such an ungrateful daughter who doesn't like her mom's idea of buying cakes for bday.

But, truthfully, that's unecessary!

Who will eat the cake?? I'm not really fond of cake, especially when it's a birthday cake.

....

Weird huh???

But that's true.

I won't mind eating cake...

But a birthday cake is just, give me a different feeling that makes me... somehow, feel don't want to eat even a piece. Well, unless when I'm in my good or cheerful mood - which is actually, seldom to come on my birthday's date.

Yeah, I'm wondering about this thing too.

Why I can't feel the joyfulness of my every birthday's date?

Bad luck, misfortune, or whatever it is, is always come to me on my birthday, whether it's the smallest thing, or the biggest thing.

...

I don't know what else I have to say in this pointless post...

But, just don't be like me - this weird person, who dislike a date of her bday.

XDDD

Hahaha...

I love SHINee World! + some random things...

2008-08-29T11:11:00.006+07:00

Awww, I love SHINee's new album!!

How could I not love it??

Every track has its own awesomeness and I love all of those without exception!

The music they offer is definitely my favorite one, and there's no reason not to totally lost into its beat. Moreover, SHINee's beautiful vocal blending is the main factor to make this album packed with more and more plus points

The R&B touch, the melody, the beat, music background, along with great vocals.

Oh yeah, SM Entertainment sure is know how to 'make' their stars shine.

Well, I admit it that I'm not really a SHINee's fan, nor fall into SHINee's fandom world. The fact is, I don't really have a huge amount of love as much as I have for TVXQ and Big Bang.

But! Just as for its music...

...yeah, only to its music...
I think I come to like SHINee's a lot after hearing this whole album!

Okay okay okay, I'm sorry that I cannot do much about it.

...But at least, I love their music right??

SHINee is also the ones that makes me love k music more than j music =)

Well, I think that K music has more different variety of unique voices and music rather than Jmusic has. And this has to be the reason, of why I gradually HEART kmusic more.

I think I have to officially announce... that I have changed my interest to korean music!!

XDDD

Anyway. Talking about panda eyes.

No, no, it's not Seung Ri from Big Bang...

...But it's me!

I've just discovered something that actually, I don't really know whether this is a good news or not:

I have panda eyes .

Whenever I don't get enough sleep, this black circle will appear around my eyes.

But whenever I get enough sleep...

IT DOES STILL APPEAR!!

Eww...

It's not really obvious though, but I can tell that the black circle is there, right under my eyes - never really disappear.

But that's weird.
How come I find out this thing after these 17 years life??

I've been facing myself every day on the mirror, but then I just knew it yesterday.

Jeez.

...But then again, Seung Ri does have panda eyes too,

So so so so... that means - we have the same kind of eyes! *Happy* XDDD -> just some random thoughts that make it as a good 'news'.

Well, okay.

I'm not going to write a long post... but I shall end this entry with pictures of me... and friends.

Just like a family photo, huh?

No Blogwalking Anymore

2008-08-25T21:04:00.010+07:00

Hello.

It's been a while since my last entry ^^

I've been a little busy recently, but however - I don't really care about it. I still can manage everything and as long as I take it smoothly, I think handling things not to out of my hands is...

easy?
I don't know if it's the correct word or not but any words with similar meaning will do.

So, my today's spare time - I use it for doing a blog post!

*YAY!*

But! Before I continue to our today's topic (ha, topic XDD) I want to tell you something.

Starting from now on, I'll stop to do blogwalking.

doushite doushite doushite..?

Um, honestly, I have many things to do rather than blogwalking.

Hopping on one's blog, then leave a 'hi!' message, yeah... I'll not do that anymore.

Frankly speaking, I think it doesn't really necessary as mostly, the real intention to do blogwalking (beside making friends) is only for gaining readers to visit back to your blog again so then, you'll get a high traffic for your blog.

Well,
I was once like that.

...But in the end, I came to realize that,

I don't really have to do this.

Why should I?

Why should I feel desperate to have more readers reading about my doing, ranting, rambling, etc etc etc...?

What's the point anyway? To get comments?

Well, I won't make myself lie only to deny that actually, comments are nice. It's not like I'm not happy to receive it even if it's just only one comment that I got. I do appreciate comments, so that's why I put tagboard on my sidebar and I also put html code for comments in the end of every post.

...It's just,
I don't feel like to desperatly leave my links every where, either with blogwalking or to submit my blog url on sites such as blogged.com, blog directory, etc.

Oh, there's this one common statement says:

Every blogger seek for attention.

Let's say... attention seekers?

-_-

True, true, true.

Bloggers made a blog to be read by people, and that's why I made this blog.

My blog, maybe is the ONE and ONLY place of all places where I can express myself freely without having to be afraid to those judgemental people in reality. Therefore, it's my right to do any kind of posts - either it's me being show-off, being overly proud of myself, angry to certain people, sad, frustration, down, unhappy, or a bit of flaming post... maybe? XDD Yeah, everything.

But then again, even how much I show off about stuffs or praising my own self (well, if I do any) or anything else,
that doesn't mean that I'm desperate for attention, nor I have the strong urge to get comments.

Okay, do you see a connection?

...or not?

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Uh, well... I'm sorry,
I haven't yet advanced in english so... please accept my deepest apology if you find any grammatical errors (which I know, you'll find A LOT! XDD) in this post ^^;

So!

what I'm trying to say is,
I'll not do the blogwalking anymore and I have told the reason plus gave you the detail, right?

But although I won't do blogwalking anymore, I still and will reply to those who leave comment(s) or message(s)! ^^

Okay. Move to the next subject! XD

There, if you read the link list under my forewords on the right sidebar...

You'll come to notice something.

.

.

.

*dumb rolls*

You'll notice that I...

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.
.
.
.
.

...I have a new blog!!

Yeah, I have come up with a new blog again, and it is called 'Midgard Forest'! *yay!*

Jeez, I had a hard time to find the suitable name for it...

Because almost all of the url names from my list that I had spent my time to think of, seemed to be taken already by those blogspot users out there! Grr!!

I typed this, but it wasn't available. I typed again, and it was not available again. Not available, not available, not available....

-_-

Even when I used the word I really want to use, 'Midgard',

It was already taken.

-----___________------- *long face*

But! I didn't give up!

Because I want to use 'Midgard' so much, I tried to add 'Forest' behind, and it just happened that the id was available!

GYAHAHAHA!!

Oh oh!

I forgot to say that actually,

'Midgard Forest' is restricted for public!

Because uh, I have too many secrets written down in my every single post there! My craziest thoughts, my deepest feelings, my greatest desires, and other my's + est. Everything without exception.

So, you do got the picture of how dangerous it can be if I don't set it as a private blog, do you? =)

Hence, in order to avoid any bad things happen (in case someone I know read it... no, no, even if you guys I don't exactly know read it... oh noooo!! XOO it would be embarassing!!), then I decided to set it as a private blog, which is me - the author - is the only person in this world who has the privilege access to see Midgard Forest! Hahaha~

Anyway, speaking of name...

Do you know what exactly Midgard Forest is...?

Uh, cut the 'forest'. I mean, the 'Midgard' only. Do you know what is it?

Okay...
Maybe people who fond of playing games (mostly those with storylines, not games like counter strike, WE, MotoGP, etc) are pretty much know other words that come from a mythology like Midgard.

Let's see these ramdom words.

Odin, Leviathan, Fenrir, Yggdrasill, Asgard, Loki, Ragnarok, and Thor.

Yeah yeah yah, *can't keep it any longer* it all comes from Norse Mythology, a myth that I used to place my interest on since I was in primary school!!!

Norse Mythology is very popular that many names comes from that myth are used in many games or even animes!

Er...

Don't know what Norse Mythology is?

O.0 Ohh, how could you! =(

Infos from wikipedia:

Norse, Viking or Scandinavian mythology comprises the indigenous pre-Christian religion, beliefs and legends of the Scandinavian peoples, including those who settled on Iceland, where most of the written sources for Norse mythology were assembled. Norse mythology is the best-preserved version of the older common Germanic paganism, which also includes the very closely related Anglo-Saxon mythology. Germanic mythology, in its turn, developed from an earlier Indo-European mythology.

Norse mythology is a collection of beliefs and stories shared by Northern Germanic tribes. It had no one set of doctrinal beliefs. The mythology was orally transmitted in the form of poetry and modern knowledge about it is mainly based on the Eddas and other medieval texts written down during and after Christianization.

Some aspects of Norse mythology passed into Scandinavian folklore and have survived to modern day. Others have recently been reinvented or reconstructed as Germanic neopaganism. The mythology also remains as an inspiration in literature (see Norse mythological influences on later literature) as well as on stage productions and movies.

For further explanation, please click me! and get the complete information so you won't be left behind! XDD

Back then, I got some infos about Norse Mythology from a game magazine. Each edition would review different things like person, creature, monster, mecha, robot, and else - all from games. And I happened to find so many names comes from Norse Myth and I don't know in what way, I began to like the uniqueness of those names.

Plus the story behind each name.

Well, about Midgard...

It's actually a name of place inhabited by humans in Norse Myth. Is a part from 9 Worlds which consist of:

Álfheimr
Asgard
Jötunheimr
Midgard
Muspelheim
Niðavellir
Niflheim
Svartálfaheim
Vanaheimr

and all those places is connected by a huge tree called Yggdrasill.

According to the myth, Midgard will be destroyed at Ragnarok (used as a name of online games, korean comic or manhwa, anime... do you know one of those?) and Ragnarok is, the battle at the end of the world.

See?

It's truly an interesting story that it has behind its name!

That's why, being influenced by it, I named my blog with name of place that comes from a myth.

And my favorite so far is...

Odin.

What makes him my most fave character?

The answer, is all described on the wikipedia description below.

Odin, the god of war. Sometimes acts as the instigator of wars, and is said to have been able to start wars by simply throwing down his spear Gungnir, and/or sending his valkyries, to influence the battle toward the end that he desires. The Valkyries are Odin's beautiful battle maidens that went out to the fields of war to select and collect the worthy men who died in battle to come and sit at Odin's table in Valhalla, feasting and battling until they had to fight in the final battle, Ragnarök.

Odin would also appear on the battle-field, sitting upon his eight-legged horse Sleipnir, the greatest of all horses.

Uh, I dunno about this, but it seems like, it only has 6 legs? where did the other 2 go?

Never mind. It should be 8 legs according to the myth.

Odin is just, awesome. And the title he was given, a god of war, definitely makes me come to admire him!!

-------------------------------------------------------------

Anyway, that is kinda a long one, huh?

My post, I mean.

I don't know how come I could type all of this sentences but in the end, I got headache that is very disturbing =(

Yeah... I have constant headaches recently.
And it is quite annoying that I wouldn’t mind if someone smacks my head hardly! Moreover, the heat caused by global warming is waaayyyy too terrible to make my head experience more aches.

Curse to global warming...

...

...

...Anyone volunteer to smack my head?

English is My Major Course!

2008-08-22T17:20:00.000+07:00

I’m happy with my decision to choose English as my major course at college, while at the same time - mostly my friends tend to choose popular faculties such as Law, Psychology, Economy, Doctor, Architect, Biotechnology, and else.

Well,
People say that you should take your major course which you tend to like.

And I love learning language, which is obviously, the reason of why I ended up being a student of English Department.

Okay.

Please check this out.

Basically, there are always two different kinds of reply when I tell people that I belong to English Department. And they are:

1. “English? Whoa, I think English is very difficult…”

And then,

2. “What? …English…? Are you sure…?”

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

…Oh sure.

The second one is a very annoying reply. The intonation, along with their obvious odd looks, seems like, questioning my seems-to-be-wrong decision.

Why? WHY and SINCE WHEN it's become a wrong decision?

Does it tell you so because English isn’t as popular as your faculties that you’ve entered??

--__--

Well, you got it wrong, then.

English is a global language, and it is used in almost every country in this world even as the main language, or as a bridge that connecting one to another.

Therefore, it’s truly important to be native in speaking English, right?

It is 2008, man. You’ll soon enter the globalization!

Soooooo,

Tell me.

IS THAT ANY WRONG WITH MY DECISION?

I see no reason to be shame about because of the fact that I didn’t enter any other popular faculties.

You take English just as a-piece-of-cake-thingy, so you barely know nothing – I should say.

…Okay, it may sounds easy for you, but if you learn about its structure, and deeper in vocabulary, or even apply English speaking in your daily life – well, I assume you won’t get through it easily.

Even how much I want to be a native speaker just like my lecturers do, I still can’t manage to get used to it.

I have no problem in writing (although I can’t deny that I’ll do some unnecessary mistakes), reading (still need to be fixed… a little? Nu-uh), or listening (oh, I love listening! And since our lecturers are pretty much uses English everyday, my ear is gradually getting used to it!) …

But when it's about speaking...

I doubt about it.

I still find it difficult to speak in English… as I still need to think first on what to say.

It doesn’t come out naturally just like what I want it to…

Because mostly, it’s all about grammars.

Whether to use simple present, past, or future… I cannot be a perfect speaker without making mistakes in my awfully bad speech. I have a tendency to mix everything, just like… using present when it should be past. Yeah, something like that lah… and it’s because my brain and tongue still cannot work together properly that I cannot avoid that.

Bah!

But hey, I still have my eagerness to speak (like) native English!

That’s one of my goals, anyway.

I really want to speak like natives, understand to what are people talking about, and able to give a reply and make my voice.

Overall, I need to be fluent, as it is a requirement that’ll fulfill my simple hope:

I want to make friends, in a wider community =)

and get to know different cultures around the world.

Hahaha!

Silly as it sounds, but that’s true.

Maybe it’s because I had ever talked with people from different countries, and it makes me addicted more to do so.

Oh! Just like, today.

I had orientation again, and it was held only for new students of English Department. I got the same group with the exchange students from Japan (there are two, females, their names are Chiharu and Risa), and the one I sat down beside with, was Ishikawa Risa.

Well…

My English isn’t that fluent you know, but I don’t really care.

I began a conversation with my limited English (she can speak a little bit of Indonesian, but I talked with English instead. We were supposed to use English in that event, anyway) and we were able to do a two-way communication.

BTW, she’s so cute =) smiling all the time…

We were talking about her family (She has a brother named Shota… and she miss her family so much!), her favorite singers (Speed, Mr. Children, Bump of Chicken… oooh~ I know them all!!), favorite anime (one piece), and one thing that I was excited over:

She knows TVXQ!!!
The Korean boy band…. Hahaha…

Reminds me when I was in Thailand… at Korean Festival, or whatever its name (I forgot) … at MBK (is it right? I kind of forgot too… but one thing for sure, it’s near to Siam Paragon), I talked LOTS AND LOTS about who-else-it’s-TVXQ with the stands-owner! We were talking about SM Town's forthcoming dream concert, how DBSK, SuJu, and Big Bang are so famous in Thailand, up until the hanmade stuffs they sold in their stands.

Hehehe…

Really… fandom is talking here.

FANDOM UNITE US!

=)

…

…

…eh?

I think this post is kinda carried away…?

Well, anyway, back to English Department topic.

I'm not going to be long...

But to those annoying people out there, all words ‘you’ is refer to you.

Got underline this:

I’m not you,

I’m not him, and…

I’m not her.

I’m what I am.

I decide everything because I build my own life and my own future.

Got it?

Then that should be it.

unknown kind of person

2008-08-20T04:36:00.000+07:00

New environment...

...let's say, i'ts not really a big thing for me.

I'm kind of a girl who can adapt and get along easily with almost every type of new things, like... new people, new atmosphere, new surrounding, or anything.

Because basically, I always try to put this enjoy feeling on everything and anything I do, and I can be a person who don't really mind or take things seriously... unless it's a real serious matter.

So, I'm like... easy going person. Do everything, as long as it's fun and okay for us to do, then I'll do it.

Well... it's up to my mood, sometimes.
I'm a moody person (just like you XDD), and I would show my moody act only to friends I know =)

Hey, you wouldn't talk to strangers that you're actually in your bad mood, right?

Anyhow, I would always (try to) be a kind person, because... it's definitely NOT my character to make some unfriendly images!

Being approachable, I want that image.

I want people don't have any hesitant feeling if they want to talk/greet/approach me. I want them to be just casual because, being a nice person they are, of course I'll do the same thing. I'll smile at you back, and talk/reply to your statements nicely.

But yet,

I still don't have a clue, to this one certain girl.

No, no, she is not from my college, but a friend from high school.

I don't know what exactly that has made me to think about this matter, after all these past two moths never bumped into her again (and never want to). But once I think about it, I'm getting pissed off to all, everything about her.

Her images, rude words, all her sickening gestures.

Oh yeah, it's sickening...

The way she talk, the way she move her lips, the way she act sweetly only in front of persons she personally likes, the way she walk, etc etc etc ...

There are so many that it would just only wasting spaces to mention them all. Hah!

Okay, okay...

It's not that important anymore and I've decided to forgive her already even though she didn't plea any sorry.

It's just, I can't stand her rude behaviour towards and only to me (I think) while she did set a kindly smile to everyone.

Being made from a glass, my heart was broken because... there was an obvious exception here!

Oh well, I didn't know her before until we got in the same class for the third year of my high school. I even didn't talk much to her because ever since the first time she laid my eyes on mine, I sensed some kind of... abusive staring.

I did some checking through flashbacks inside my brain hard disk, whether I had done something wrong to her anot in the past.

And the result was... 0

Really!

I couldn't seem to find any fit reason, so I came and asked to my other friend.

And then my friend got this conclusion (I don't know whether it's a right one or a wrong one) : she was actually, jealous of me.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

...OMG WHAT JEALOUS???

Can you believe me???

I don't know what was she jealous over...

and I don't know, if this was the wrong conclusion.

But whatever it was, I couldn't take her direct+indirect rudeness words anymore at that time.

So, it's not my fault that I came to dislike her, RITE???

When I don't feel any comfy feeling with someone, I seldom to talk to him/her.

And when I hate someone, apparently, I'd pretty much make a distance with him/her!

That's too much, huh?

Well...

That's me.

But as I've said earlier, I already forgave her though...

But I hope in the future, I will never have to meet her again as it only brings back some useless... memory?

First Post, Everyone?

2008-08-17T19:08:00.000+07:00

Finally!

I've finished my code editing and ...

Let's give a warm welcome to my new blog: cross my line.bs.com!!!

Oh, it didn't take even ten minutes to finish up everything because the skin, is just so simple and I totally HEART simple skin just like this one!

Blogskin makers should really take Bikini Boy's work as example...
Simple, unique design, and one thing which I happen rarely to find is, its big font size!

Precisely, that's the point of why did I choose this skin as my template. I love big font size, because small font size just make sentences harder for eyes to see, rite?
Well, okay, it's pretty much reasonable though, using small font size looks neater for your overall layout.

But hey, big font size can represent neat image too.

It's more readable, anyhow XD

Thus, I love Bikini Boy, who is understanding enough to make this type of skin for anyone with a simple taste like mine =)

Anyway...

Speaking of my new blog.

I was rather hesitant at the first time I came across a decision to move out from my previous blog...

And still, even up until this current second of time, I think that it doesn't really necessary to make a new blog while I can just continue to write down there, just like what I had done all along.

...

...

.
.
.
.
.
.

But, seeing it from my different point of view, I think this sudden decision isn't that unnecessary.

Starting a new blog means,

Leaving old things behind.

I'm not trying to leave my past as I really treasure it because, obviously, without encountered those - I wouldn't become what I've become right now, for I really grateful although sometimes, I often come to hate myself.

Me, the lazy, easy to give up, leaving things which are on its way to progress, stupid, emo, jealousy, cry baby, frustrating, disappointing... just name it, I have it.

Human, you know.

I have my own weakness spots just like you have it, but it's quite annoying that I can list down so many...

-_-

But then again, I think this is a great chance to improve the present me through this new blog of mine. Because...

I want to build the new image of me.

I want to be more open minded, more honest about telling my feelings, thoughts, and things refer to my personal mind. More importantly, I want to shout out my voice, and let it freely to be expressed.

But I know, as much as I showing what kind of person I am, the fact is, you don't know who's exactly the real me.

Well, humans are complicated, aren't they?

=)

Oh anyway... if you're interested, you can link me and DO notice me on tagboard so I'll link you back

Good night everyone ;)

And congratz to Lin Dan, who had just won the final match of Beijing Olympic of men singles badminton category.

You're so cool, man! I really, really want your autograph and take a photo with you XDD