● OWNER ●
a.k.a Ellisa (my real name)
Hello. I'm this blog's owner, Ellisa, or you may call me Whiteyin as it is my username.
I'm just the way I am.
Simple, but yet can be complicated.
I'm imperfect, and I have flaws
I may be just like any other average girl out there...
But I'd like to think that I'm different,
just like how everyone's different from others
I was born on August 31th 1990,
And that makes Virgo as my zodiac + Horse as my chinese zodiac.
My biggest dream is to capture every beautiful moment all over the world with my own eyes.
My wildest dream is to be in a personal meeting with Jung Yun Ho XD
And my secret dream is to have a huge fashion collection like G-Dragon has XDD
I'm a music lover, I have interests with japanese and korean music.
I'm a resident of fandom world, but I won't allow you to address me, 'a fangirl'.
I'm a gamer, actually. But appears to be seldom in playing any recent releases.
Random facts about me:
1. Jung Yun Ho is my biggest crush.
2. Listening Big Bang's music is a must for me eveyday.
3. Likes to sing, but don't have a good voice...
4. Loves RPG Games to death.
5. Likes to watch japanese dorama
5. In love with japanese culture since I was at my early 11.
6. The one and only female group I adore in my heart is S.H.E from Taiwan
7. Personally admire a person who could do something to help other people, no matter how simple is the thing
Private blog : Midgard Forest
Other blog : Colorful Rainbow
imeem : here
tagged : here
● MY DAILY RANTING ●
♥ Tuesday, September 23, 2008♥
I was looking back to my archives, when this thought suddenly crossed on my mind:
I barely mentioned about my worries in this blog.
Yeah, I know, I seldom to write anything personally about problems, and probably, it makes me seen as a happy girl who got no worries in her life.
But you don't know how someone's life is... right?
She may be the face who practically seems to lead a happy life. But as for the truth, people out there don't have any idea about how much efforts does she come with in order to live her life in a happy way.
Maybe I'm not exactly that kind of person. But I would say yes, to the part which tell people out there don't have any idea about me.
Yeah, about who I am, basically almost everything.
They don't know me.
It's not like I'm a secretive person or what. But I'm not used telling people, "hey, I'm in my bad mood, I'm bloody upset because he or she bla bla bla bla..."
I'm not that type of person, who likes bragging about her problems and tell the world how emo I've become due to complicated things I face.
Well, maybe I do, sometimes.
If I'm too pissed off by something around me.
But usually, I can manage to forget it somehow because I know, I'm not always be at the down side every time.
Oh, snd now before I forget, I'll tell you about something - how fandom (uh, do you know word 'fandom'? Search it on wikipedia... if you don't know, of course) has become a very, very important role in my life ever since I discovered TVXQ for the first time.
You know, if there were no TVXQ and Big Bang...
And if there were no SM Entertainment and YG Family...
OR even if there were no INTERNET at the first place!
Yeah, I can't say more.
I think... my life would've become the worst one.
More miserable than I've ever been, I think.
I'm not exaggerating. I'm being serious here!!
Sometimes, people will tell me that I sounds like a fangirl.
Oh, please. Don't. call. me, a FAN GIRL - or like another people's assumption, bunch of idiots who likes going over handsome faces or anything - you name it - that related to someone physically.
...What the hell, I'm not a FAN GIRL!!
I HATE it to the core when people address me like one!
Well, just like the first statement I wrote on the upper post, they just don't have any idea about how much I DO love TVXQ. They don't know how much I support them, and why does it stand still even after years has passed by. They don't know what the real meaning of 'fan' itself is, and practically, THEY DON NOT KNOW NOTHING!
What's so bad about fandom? Fandom is not like what you think, and for your information, you're just wasting your time if you want to tell me that, being in fandom is, wasting my time.
Mind your business please, and don't brag again.
Okay. Back to the main topic.
Not enough to be pissed off by one thing only, but I'm also very, very pissed off by several things recently, all happened in a row!
Well, I don't see if there's any use to talk (write) about this because it happens in every one's life - I know, I know. Life is about ups and downs, that also I know well.
But you know what...? I BARELY have no interest in life, because it has been so miserable to me.
Let's say... school's atmosphere, assignments, tight schedule, midterm test, meeting for English Day, tomorrow's presentation, low internet connection, friends, money, love, family (my brother. That jerk!), and everything that is usually there at horoscope telling.
I hate it.
EVERYTHING IS UNPLEASANT FOR ME!!
T.T I feel like I'm going to cry...
There are frustration, sadness, hatred, anger, dissatisfaction,
All were mixed into one. And please, don't ask me what's the name of the mixing.
I WANT MY HAPPINESS (BACK)!!
Labels: fandom, Sen no Kotoba
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